Amos

I Remember

His brown hair, matching brown eyes

His dimples from side to side

A brother, a best friend

Matchbox cars from your room to mine

You yelled at me by the plant, I forgive you now.

Your smile matched mine

Silly giggles at the dinnertime table

Mom and Dad just smiled

Scraped knees, band-aids on our legs

The big tree in teh backyard

Apart by Death, together by Love

I'll Never Forget

The end of summer's days

A week before school

A forgotten snake across the road, failed brakes failed car

Through the window I could see

The death, the pain, my family's tragedy

The police came, the ambulance too

But the blunt force trauma was too much for his little head.

He couldn't be helped; we couldn't be helped

My parents came; I didn't understand

A short police car ride home; why couldn't he come too?

Mom and Dad were crying but I couldn't stop asking

I couldn't stop asking why he wasn't there too.

Days passed but he didn't come home.

A funeral, but no procession; they couldn't bury him

Four years old, i asked for one thing, the one thing

brought my parents the most pain. No, he can't come back.

He'll Never Know

2008 his graduation

I watched his friends walk the aisle

I cried for my friends, but I also cried for the chances he never got.

Never to meet Abby

Never to chase away my boyfriends

Three white dresses to be missed, on never to be worn.

I long for the fights that would make us stronger

I envy other girls of their big brothers

My sister brings me the most joy

I'll never wish her away no matter the pain between

I promise to be the best big sibling I can

I promis to live for the both of us, you and I

I promise to make life easier for Mom and Dad.

I promise never ever to forget you.

You're my brother, my best friend and the reason I am who I am.

I will always love you.